Former RedSox star and 38 Studios' founder Curt Schilling has said "I failed" in his foray into videogames in an interview with The Boston Globe.
"Outside of, like, personal family–losing my dad–it was the most devastating thing I've ever gone through," Schilling said. "And it's still something I'm trying to bounce back from.
"It was so hard, because I had pushed and pushed and pushed," he added. "I had 300 families [of company employees] I had to take care of, including my own, and it failed. And I've lost a lot in my life but I've never failed at anything. I was going to [win] but I couldn't get it done."
In the article, Schilling said he had a stroke leading up to the bankruptcy of 38 Studios in May 2012. While he would blame his heart attack on the stress of the company's finances he said, "I'm sure that was part of it."
Nevertheless, he says the studio's problems came back on him, "But ultimately, it's on me. I was the guy. At the end of the day, it failed because I failed to raise outside capital."
Schilling believes Rhode Island governor Lincoln Chafee did "absolutely nothing" to keep 38 Studios afloat. "Name one thing he actually did. Ask him that."
Chafee controversially oversaw a loan of $75 million to 38 Studios.
"The people that hate me, there's nothing I can say or do to get them to like me," Schilling commented. "I’ve never stolen. I've never hit my wife. I've never driven drunk. I've never taken steroids. I've never done cocaine. I've never beat my wife, beat my kids. I've never done any of the stuff that a lot of people are all about getting second chances for."
"That doesn't mean I’m perfect," he continued. "Far from it. I've got a big mouth and I don't know when to shut up and I'll give you my opinion on anything. But I know I’m not a bad dude."
Rhode Island is currently in the process of suing Schilling, among others, for 38 Studios' financial dealings. It has been claimed Schilling and others at the firm covered up some transactions before moving to Rhode Island and securing the state-backed loan.
38 Studios only released one game, the EA Partners' published RPG Kingdoms of Amalur: Reckoning.
Via: GameSpot.